frustration

I’m not really mad at my parents, just disappointed that they don’t see eye to eye with me on this issue.

They claim to provide me with so much, housing, insurance, food, utilities, etc. This is all fine and dandy, and I appreciate their help. They don’t seem to understand the fact that I pay $250 a month to them to help them with these services, plus pay for school and bills (cell phone, college loans, gasoline + auto upkeep). I can’t eat at home for every meal every day because I’m mostly at work or school. This leaves me with very little money for other things, like recreation.

The reason this really irks me is because today I received my federal aid information back from the government. Again, nothing. This is so frustrating because I am so financially stressed and they won’t give me a dime. I my disappointment to my parents and they replied with apathy (”We didn’t get any help with X when we were young.”).

I’m sorry, but I get really frustrated that EVERY one of my friends who is attending university gets some kind of assistance from their parents. The reason I get no money from the government is because I have an EFC (Expected Family Contribution) of $30,000. I don’t know where they get this figure, but it pisses me off. Either the government expects that my parents were the best financial planners 22 years ago or that they’re fucking rich. Either or, it doesn’t matter.

I know my parents are not fiscally irresponsible. They both started with nearly nothing and have alot to show for it now. They are trying to instill this ethic into me and I GET IT. I UNDERSTAND THAT IF YOU WORK HARD FOR SOMETHING ITS WORTH MORE TO YOU. But I digress, shouldn’t you strive to seek improvement for your children so they don’t have to experience all of the hardships you have? I’m not comparing my hardships to theirs, but my father didn’t even go to college, he was Vietnam bound and didn’t have a chance.

This brings me to my final point. It’s not that I don’t de-value my education, its that I value my youth. I can go to school any time. But to truly enjoy my young adulthood and college years (which are slipping by so fast it scares the shit out of me), I need to be able to immerse myself in it. I am unable to do this if I am constantly worrying about financial problems like “How am I going to pay for the gas to get to school?” or “Will I be able to pay for a summer class?” or what is currently pressing me “Can I finish paying of school before the end of the semester? (No.).

This shakes me to the core.

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29.Apr.08 Personal Comments (0)

last night


Study: Nearly 80 Percent Of Roommates Got So Drunk Last Night

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26.Apr.08 Random Comments (0)

friends don’t let friends drive drunk



Also, this one was really good.
Star Wars Anti-Smoking PSA

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23.Apr.08 Random Comments (0)

fuck the earth day

I laughed, just a little.


F*ck the Earth Day - Watch more free videos

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23.Apr.08 Random Comments (0)

this is super cool.

Testing of NASA’s new methane-based rocket engine.

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21.Apr.08 General Comment (1)

cats playing theramin

The first thing I thought about was “I CAN HAZ THERAMIN?”

This made me lol. The look from the other cat at the end is classic.

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14.Apr.08 Culture, Random Comments (0)

more video madness

This is totally cool.

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13.Apr.08 Art, Hacks, Random Comments (0)

best video ever

From Kottke:



The song is Utah Saints - “Something Good”

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09.Apr.08 Movies, Music, Random Comments (0)

bloggity blog blog

So prince is playing Coachella, which is pretty cool.  I don’t have the money to go out there but they seem to have a more well rounded lineup over Lollapalooza. which i’ll probably be attending.  I want to see the big headliners at Lollapalooza more, but the smaller bands at Coachella seems like it would be alot more fun.  I’d love to see Black Mountain and Holy Fuck on the same stage right after another.  There’s also a better selection of electronic artists playing Coachella (Aphex Twin, Pendulum, Fatboy Slim).

Don’t you hate when you lose motivation to write halfway through a thought?

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09.Apr.08 Music Comments (0)

update

well life is a turd lately.  i’ve got a lot of work to do before the end of the semester, alot of money to pay off by the end of the summer, and a whole lack of motivation.  lately i just want to sit on my ass and read.  i’ve re-read Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance and Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas.  both great books, and i’m glad that i’ve re-read them.  i should start on Oil! by Upton Sinclair today, which is convenient because There Will Be Blood comes out on DVD today.

thank god the weather is nice, otherwise i might just go crazy.

new wordpress (2.5) is cool too.

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08.Apr.08 News, Personal Comments (0)

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